All Grown Up !!

Remember those happy times when we were in high school ? it was like a second home to us, as we spend half a day there, other thn at home !

Like i said, High School, is a place just like our second home, where we participate in everday activity, hang out with our groupies everyday, making each and every part of the entire school out TERRITORY.. Those were the fun times..... at least it was when we look back now..

But High School for me, well, the ending, was very different for me! (i wish it wasnt) I thought it will have a happy ending for me, but no, high school ends badly for me. very lil people notice this, but, my very close friends do nocitce this, or at least, heard from me ! Lets just put it this way.... the STARTING and ENDING of high school (from 1&5) was the worst time in my life.. in between, it was GREAT... especially form 3 and 4.. form 5 was great in the begining but wasnt from the middle, towards the ending!! i love form 3 so much as that was the time i have a different perspective on certain things. form 4 was great, but not as great as i was in form 3 as my best friend Michelle left school to another place.. and, things wasnt very good then but, it was okay...

Anyway enough of all these bullcrap stories...

My life really started, as in i really grew up, when i was in college.. that was the place where me and some of my closest friends found very very great people from other schools.. people whom i felt i have known them for life. People whom i wonder "why weren't we in each other's life before this".. well, guess its just a matter of time...

its september already, and november is coming soon.. the time when ALLLL of us, alll my greatest friends will be back in Penang.. oh my god i can already feel the fun .. the activities we are goin to do.. the hang outs.. the.. EVERYTHING.... the sad part is, after a few months, we will have to be seperated again for almost another year, and this will continue until we are all working in other places, across the globe, in different major cities.

And everytime, we ONLY get to look back to our memories, the times we all had spent together with the greatest people in our lives, wondering when will that ever happen again.. well, at least we ALL HAVE to make a pack, make a promise to meet each other back in our hometown , at least every once a year......

at least now, we know we WILL have months of seeing each other every year until the day we graduate and scattered around everywhere doing our jobs.. Lets look foward to this year end, and have the greatest time no one had ever had.. make this memory a sweet one, so we can all look back one day and say "well, those were the best times". But i believe, no matter how far we all are, we will still have the chance to meet up in future AT LEAST EVERY ONCE A YEAR... lets all make a pack.. a promise..... as we grow up, things change, like the speed of lightning indeed!!

AFTER EXAMS

AFTER EXAMS.... HERE IN LIBRARY.. oh my god sem 2 ends sooooo fast... time pass really fast.... in a blink of an eye, 6 months has gone d....
Now waiting to go out with Karin, Vivienne and Steph.... n the rest still in exam hall i think...

Right now..Karin blogging bout vivienne askin me bout viagra....
Karin now playing some pig game....
Vivienne cant wait to see Kate Borsworth having sex in 21...
N YJ came d... n where is Brandon???
Hui Ling is trying to type something...... 32.0i (is what she typed)
Steph is blur, askin something bout changing sth...
N im chatting with Janey who dont miss me (actually she miss me alot she denying) and saying i loved Eileen and how the hell she remmebers Eileen? See EILEEN HO i told u ur hotness is famous.....
Someone behind sayin sth bout dying.. so many there...panda... vivienne say hichhock..kitten n bluek all....
Hui Ling n Vivienne wanna enter cheerleading.....

OKAY THATS ALL FOR NOW... ON OUR WAY TO WATCH JOLIE SEXY AND BORSWORTH HAVING SEX!!!! BYE PEOPLE!!!!

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SORRY FOR ANY HIDEOUS AND INAPPROPIATE DESIGNS ON THIS BLOG...

Defination of 'Life Is Hard'

Most people define 'Life Is Hard' as, well, college, assignments, relationship problems and all other bullcraps... well, its NOT...

My defination of 'life is hard' is when we think about our future, what are we gonna do in future, will we be successful in the field of our interest?? where are we heading to, career and also abroad. These are the things we have to be thinking about now, make plans for our future before its too late.

The problem with me is, i always think of the unnecessary stuffs, like will i get a job abroad next time coz ive always wanna work abroad, in places like Paris, New York, as they have very good job opportunities and yes, we are asian, and wanting them to take us in for a job is also a huge huge consideration for them. (Usually the answer is No). And if i don't work here in my hometown, how about my friends, family, loved ones, and.... my home ???? Of course i never thought of wanting to leave them....!?!?!?!

Interest-..Ive always loved travelling and i don't want to stick to only one boring job and work there for the rest of my life. I like to explore other countries, other major cities, having a main occupation while doing part time jobs related to my main job. I love exploring, learn new things from different places. But is it possible??? Does everyone have that kinda opportunity??

Home-.. A nice decorated house is something ive alwiz wanted as its the safest and the most relaxing place in the world. So i dont understand why some people have so many houses. The 4 season houses, one for every season, and a holiday home, this home that home, aint HOME suppose to be the ONLY place u will ever go back to for comfort and safety ?? Im that kinda person who likes to have a nice house where i can go home to every night. But on the other hand, i love travelling to different places, looking for different opportunities in my career.. so how can i make my home, permanant for me?? unless i dun travel that often but only once or twice every few months for assignments????

Away From Hometown-.. If there is an opportunity for me to work abroad, i will, for sure, take it. But the thought of leaving your whole family behind sucks. its horrible... we leaving our hometown, migrating to the other side of the world, leaving EVERYTHING (since our childhood) behind.. I know for sure my father and my brothers, sisters n everyone wont follow me, nor migrate to wherever i desire to go..... n the thought of leaving my FATHER behind, is horrible, knowing he wont migrate with me to wherever i go also...

Friends-.. Everywhere we go, we meet people... good ones and bad ones.. obviously we dont give two shit bout the bad people we met on the way.. but those we considered best friends, or our best friends for years now, its just hard knowing we will be leaving them, as for sure we are all gonna be scattered around the world, doing different things, knowing that the only way to keep in touch is by the network and that makessss lotzzzzzz of differences compared to being with each other... this sucks... knowing we have to part from our friends, for a long time, hence, FOREVER????

So u see.. why i alwiz think life hard.. its because, the first thing in our live that we HAVE to do is focus on our future, and our goals.. where do we wanan go, and what do we wanan do.. but there are consequences.. it means leaving our friends.. leaving our family.. leaving our home... and leaving these 3 aspect is the most horrible thing to do, but we have to if we want to achieve our goal and target, and our dream.. so life is hard if u really think of it.. there are alot of things which we can easily do, but how about the consequences?????????

NEW YORK CITY.... ~city that never sleeps~

Ive Been Tagged...Really Fun!!

*List out 5 presents you wish for:
A car, a house, a digital camera (mine spoiled), shoes, bag (mine torn coz of KTM)

*The person who tagged you:
Karin Chan

*Your first 5 impressions of her:
Cute, Funny, Dirty (at times), Hardworking, A Great Friend

*The most memorable thing they have done/given to you:
Err, when we are in a group doing project or talking about almost everything in the world.

*If he/she becomes your lover, you two will:
Err, well if she wants me....... (she aint available i guess)

*If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be because:
Well nahh, we WILL avoid all those crap...

5 people you tag:
1) Eileen
2) Adrian
3) Suet Nee
4) Hui Chuen
5) Maalini

*Who is no 3 having a relationship with?
None. Well, she is mysterious ahhahahha

*Who is no 5 having a relationship with?
Try counting. Proberly line up from Penang to KL.

*If no 2 and no 3 got together will it be a good thing?
that will be the oddest yet cutest couple ever

*How about no 4 and 5?
Their children will be really hot.

*What is no 3 studying?
Bachelor of Accounting (Aust. Transfer Program)

*When was the last time you chatted with no 5?
Like, this morning, 5 hours ao

*Does no 4 work?
Nope...

*Would you be with no 1?
That hottie.. well yeah IF she wants me...

*How bout no 5?
Well, im DEFINATELY not her type.. We are too close of a friend to fall for.

*Does no 2 have siblings?
Yeah..a sister

*How did you get to know no 2 and no 4?
Ive known them since STD 1.. we are really old good friends.

*Where does no 1 live at?
In Penang, but currently in Perth.

*Is no 3 the sexiest person in the world?
Suet Nee??? The sexiest? HELL YEAH BABY!!!

These are the people ive tagged!! Happy Taggin ya'll.. Have a Great Day hahahaa

Look BOTH SIDES people.. and STOP judging...

We might think of SOMEONE as a very wise person.. but fuck NEVER judge it that way. A wise person don't judge a situation by knowing only one side of the story. Look at both sides and IF u wanna interfear with it, make sure u dont fuck things up between the few main people. If you think u cant make things right, then FUCK OFF and STOP acting all "Mr. Know It All.."

AND, STOP JUDGING. How to make a complaining friend feel better and how the FUCK to let your friend do the right thing, is NOT to go with the flow with their anger and depression. THINK WISE, yess it WILL be upsetting and hurtful, but hell, TRUTH is alwiz BETTER THAN A FUCKIN LIE.. When a friend come up to us, feeling alllllll depress and angry, going "yeah ure right, u shud be angry, the other person is wrong, a total ass" AINT GONNA MAKE HIM/HER FEEL ANY BETTER.. GONNA MAKE THINGS WAYYY WORST.. Wanna give advice, make sure its the TRUTH N make sure its WISE before opening ur fuckin trap. Don't know how to do it, take that ass of urs, and fuck it sumwhere else. Don t be "Mr Know It Fuckin All" if you cant be him. And DONT... i re-fuckin-peat, D-O-N-'-T JUDGE the other party just coz our friend is our friend, coz it AINT fair to the other person by listening and supporting only on the side u've listened to....

AND YESS...MY FAVOURITE PART..... DONT FUCKING RUN AWAY FROM YOUR MISTAKE... U DID A MISTAKE, OWN UP TO IT WHEN BEING CONFRONTED.. dont go alll "I dont know.. did i say that?" and run away, ignoring ur calls, sms-es coz it aint gonna make you a man, MAKE U A LOOSER OF THE 21ST CENTURY.. FUCK BE A DAAMN MAN N STAND UP FOR THE MISTAKES U HAVE MADE.....why make it in the first place if u got NO GUTS to stand up for it!! Backstabbing, bad-mouthing (someone's favourite word), judging like fuck, and telling lies to get support AND RUNNING AWAY, is the LAMEST and STUPIDEST and FUCKIEST thing to do... Have some balls and stand up to it.... face it.. and make things right.. why make that mistake n run, why didnt use ur tiny pea brain to think of the right thing to do earlier before u fucked things up?? SERVE YOU RIGHT FUCKER..

People tends to listen to ONLY one side of a story, and then supporting the closer party and judge the other party badly. Think bout it, will it be fair to the other person?? we dont even know what the fuck is going on. Human Beings, its our nature to protect ourselves and say good bout ourselves and bad bout the other party.. How many times have u heard someone coming up to u and say "i fought with my friend, BUT I AM IN FAULT. I AM IN THE WRONG".. heard that often?? or this.."i fought with him/her... n she/he is a fuckin scum, backstabbing whore bitch"... which one u heard more often.. FUCK YEAH THE SECOND ONE.. so we as LISTERNERS dont just support just coz that person is our close friend.. HELP THAT FRIEND OF YOURS GO THROUGH THAT PROBLEM, DO THE RIGHT THING, SAY THE RIGHT WORDS, HELP HIM/HER COMMUNICATE WITH THE OTHER PARTY the RIGHT way... not to fight n all fucks. aint gonna help anyone..

Yeah people might think im that kinda person who dont support my close friends as to what i said above.. again, use that brain of yours and think, why is a friend doing this? Its coz he/she CARES for you.. thats why he/she dares to take the risk, dare to make u hate him/her JUST for you to do and make things right... A close friend whose words upsets and hurts you, isnt a bad person, but a friend who dares to tell you the truth and go with you through your troubles and problems... Emphasize of this sentence "A close friend whose words upsets and hurts you...".. this sentence, which sentence caught ur eyes?? 'a friend who upsets n hurt you rite?' how bout the word 'close friend' ?? what is it doing there? n why say 'close friend' when u think he/she is just to upset u with their words.???

SO PEOPLE.. THINK... THINK BROADLY about things.. dont just think about a story or a problem.. lotz of words and meanings are hidden and MOST people just dont see it... see it with ur brain, if u cant with ur eyes... think outside the box.. 'MAYBE's' and 'IF's' helps one feel better and confident to face their problems and troubles.. going with the flow aint a good thing is some situation especially someone's emotional mood!!

So people out there, THINK for the best solution to help a friend, could be upsetting and hurtful but its way better to have a sweet n happy ending than a fucked up one... and ALWAYS...
A-L-W-A-Y-S look at both sides of the troubled parties, no matter hoe close or un-close u are to one of the party... and stop judging.... we can allll make bigggg differences in a good friend's life, and ours !!!!

AND THIS MESSAGE IS COMPLETELY GENERAL..ITS NOT SPECIFICALLY FOR ANYONE... NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE.... !!!

Depressed...for NOTHING

I am not sure if this is a problem, but it happens to me. Whenever i am alone, or when i got absolutely nothing to do, i tend to think about a lot of things! REDICULOUS things actually. Things that could bother me. I really don't know why. I am not sure if this happens to other people, but it happens to me. One way to avoid this is to make myself busy, but i cant be busy all the time. I really wish i could talk to someone about this but the problem is, there is a lot of things in my head during those times and i dont even know how to sort it out.

Another thing is, has anyone of you discovered that, there is SOMETHING inside you that u wished u could tell someone but u think no one, not even your bestest best mate could understand you? I know we can tell our closest mate everything and anything but sometimes there is just something that we can never bring ourselves to talk about it to another person. It hurts and its depressing that we keep it inside us and we need to let it out... but we just can't as we feel that no one else could understand us.

It really is depressing. Sometimes i just force myself busy or just to interupt my mind with something else happier or like now, blog it out, although its not the main problem and topic. But it does feel a tinyyyy tineee bit better. aizz....... hate it when i get depresses, FOR NOTHING