Humans..... naturally cant get enough

its human nature that we just can't get enough of what we have. EVERYTHING counts... from love, to money to sex to.... just name it..

As a students, when we get good results compared to the previous one, we are still not happy.. coz its human nature.. we alwiz wants more eventhough its more than the previous one...

money is ONE THING everyone cant get enough of.... one day we got from poor, to being rich, we are still not happy, because, we naturally just want more.. we got rich over night, got our dream car, dream house, dream gadgets.. dream whatever, BUT IN THE END, WE STILL DONT FEEL WE GOT ENOUGH.. i dunno why but i guess its just human nature..

LOVE..SEX..LUST.. when we move up from step one, we are already rushing to the next step... we often wonders, ''why cant i get that person?" and we often fantasize bout that person, this and that and all.. BUT when we finally get what we want, something in us just tells us 'you have to get more if it'... and it just makes u want more... one time kiss, you will have bigger lust for the next one..... one time sex, you will have bigger lust for it.. we promise ourself its a ONE-TIME, but it doesnt stay.. we will WANT MORE...

i guess its just human nature to want more of everything goal we have already achieved... its bad, but also good in a way... guess the cure to it to only CONTROL OURSELVES!!

Rash's Birthday party last saturday night

Last Saturday was really fun.. it was Rash's birthday party... and there were LOTZ of people.... met some new friends.. great new friends... and the party was AWESOME... after the party Khai Xian came n fetched me , with lalitha n maalini inside thhe car.. we went all the way to harta mas for supper.... and then head over to lalitha's new condo... my god.... we went swimming the next day and it was FUCKING AWESOME.... my god i havnt swam in MONTHSSS since last yea end... my god..i cant wait for my next swim!!! it was a great weekend...but the weekday was hectic...

Rash's great Birthday party.. great late night out.. and great SWIM!!

Li Hui's Birthday surprise!!

its a great surprise party thrown to li hui yesterday for her birthday!! my god ya'll shud have seen her face... it was a great..happy moment...
ita a in-house party at Maria's.. it was a great party although there are alot of new new new people!! ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI HUI!!!

stress and depression!! AGAIN

This week has been a really hectic week. Last week i hardly have any sleep... assignments..assignmets...assignments.... and this week, thank lord ECS research paper is over... for the first time i stayed up till dawn, 6am.. and then slept for 1-2 hours and went to college... and stayed up till 9pm, knock off till 13 hours later...

this week everyone seems stressed out!! everyone is in a really bad mood, tiring mood and stressed out mood... plus we had our speaking test which is finally over.. thank god!! coming up we all have a video shoot for our project... before our FINALS... so yeah everyone will stay in a bad mood till..god knows when!! i hope that wont happen startin tomorrow!!!

furthermore... im getting this new .. thing.. feeling.. in me.. like i am not getting enough of something and .. something in me is just... wanting more of something.. it doesnt make sense i know but.. i dont know how to explain it. coz there is not words for it... love? nah i dun think so.. lust? i think its lust.. BUT FOR WHAT? i am not sure!!! im so confused and i duno what is happening to me.. i think ill start off a good night sleep!!!!

Lust..Love..Like..Admiration...

Correct me if im wrong... in my own words and defination, when we have feelings for someone, it is not love yet. it is more than admiration and close to love. but love takes some time to develope.. when we are in a relationship, we develope love - care, and a feeling and attitude where u will spend the rest of your lifetime with that special person without doubt of sacrificing anything at all for that person... that is love..

we like a lot of people. we think they are cute, pretty, (handsome - for girls), like to stare at them for their attractiveness, and from that it could turn to 'crush' and then to love. like is not so much as strong as love. just like admiration, we admire someone for their good looks, talents, personality... and all these, like and admiration, leads the furthers to being friends only.. anything above that will lead to love.

now..LUST.. lust is a strong feeling and sexual attitude we have for certain people. lust have to come its natural way. when we see a person, a form of attraction will occur, which makes us want to just pull that person towards us and have a one-time with her (him - for girls).. that's lust.. lust for a person can last for a "few times" and then eventually it will fade away.. lust in us, fades away FASTER when we get what it want.. it will take some time to fly away if we dont get it, which is 90% usually what happens. and also, lust could turn to love too as it's also a form of admiration.

which is the strongest?? the decent, Love? the admiration, or the strong lust feelings ?? which one we can control more? it all depends on ourself.. but love hurts the most, while lust doesnt hurt at all!!

Saturday Night - May's Birthday

last night was one of the best night.. went out to celebrate may's birthday 12am... went for shisha last night, somewhere in KL, and it was AWESOME... and then we headed down to AC for pool and fusball... it was a great night out and also the latest time to come home ahah!! slept at 7am......

hope u had a great time May... we all did for sure... HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

My first Runway

The environment is tensed, and everyone around me is nervous. I was very very very nervous when they shouted 'guys, standby'. The nervousness hit me even more when it's my turn to walk out. Its just a metetr of seconds now. But the moment you hear the word 'go', that is where the excitement starts.

My first runway show was at the Cynna Bar@ Loft KL, i got to wear clothes from Ed Hardy, a well-known brand from the West. It was really fun, and it was a great experience, walking out there on the runway showing what you got on you. It takes your nerves away especially when u see alll familiar faces there cheering for u, and all the supports i got from all my friends from Penang to College mates to Australia !! i love u all for being there for me.. And michelle.. i love you so much for being there .. i feel so so so much 'im not alone' when ure there.. i really miss you..

In short, my first fashion runway show was incredibly exciting.. hope there will be more next time!!

The Forgotten(S)

Some people wonder why their friends are no more there when they needed them. Well, they just dont realise its their own doings.

Sometimes when you are too busy, there is always a minute for you to at least SMS or message your close friends, at least a 'hi' or a short update on what you are currently doing. It's like you dont bother at all.. so you cant blame your friends from drifting away.

So do not ignore your friends. Make conversation with them. Update them with your life. Ignoring them, being rude to them, saying 'i dun care bout your life', ignoring them when they try to contact you, is just THE SAME as shooing your friends away. Friends are one of the most important things in the world, so do not neglect them, no matter how busy you are!